Self reflection

Havent planned anything ever since Lawrence gets to the second grade in the kindergarten.  

I can totally blame the so called after school class for my laziness, for i consider myself as a responsible headteacher, but i know there is also so called high-quality parenting time even though it is short but well- planned.

here is the problem of the balance between work and parenting, especially for working mothers. 

The way that i feel guilty every time i thought about it doesn’t mean that it is solved. Instead, i just talk about it and regard it as sort of release and next time  vice versa. Now it is high time thinking about solution, since Lawrence is my only and real child. No matter how good my students are, they are others’. And the consolation that the way i work will show Lawrence hard-working attitude cant be known or learnt until he’s grown and it is too late.

Now first, how to balance work and parenting? Maybe the biggest problem isn’t work, but laziness and addition to smartphone. In the day time i should plan the schedule of lesson preparation and homework correction, and plan for Lawrence, and then chitchat with colleagues and friends. Though it can be hard because i already keep working till 12 o’clock,  im sure with more concentration and putting on the headphone can help a lot. Besides, putting Lawrence’s picture on my desk can be a good idea to remind me of the importance of efficiency.

Ok~ Done! Put it into my handbag.

Next, how to control the time to use smartphone. There r mainly 3 usages, chatting, reading information and shopping. Recently i even spend too much time chatting with fs, and ignore reading newspaper online! That’s bad enough for my writing skills, not to say losing the capacity to read with critical thinking, the essential ability to do academic study, the bottom line of my self esteem, just as the beginning when i decided to be a junior high school teacher, which doesn’t mean that i can’t  pursue my dream, but lack of self- discipline does! 

So every morning, read some newspaper and then go to work. 

During the nap time,  chitchat with fs.

After going back home, play some mp3 records to Lawrence or turn it off the second i enter my home. Shut down the outside world and seduction till Lawrence goes to bed.

Then read some books for at least 10 minutes and if it is still not 11 o’clock yet, i can turn it on and do sth i like.

As for inline shopping, maybe i should delete the app 什么值得買 ……and download it again when it is double 11and 12. Otherwise i cant help searching for things I actually dont need , but just for happiness that i bought it at a fair price! 

 Ok! Done!

Phew~ 

 Now here comes Lawrence’s schedule and plan.

This year he needs to learn new Chinese characters and starts to feel interested in the road sign or any characters he find in the street. 

Besides, he needs to learn Chinese poems and can recite at least 24 poems. One month, 2 poems. 

He needs to be able to read at least one story by pointing the characters he learns.

He should be able to finish the  蒲公英  phonics and finish reading oxford reading tree 5.

He should be able to retell the story and read out the story above.

He should persist one afters school lesson, such as the kungfu class.

He should be able to focus and do exercises for 30 mins every day to train his concentration and ability to finish homework. 

As for me, try to hold my emotions on a leash and go to sleep before 11 p.m.

I should learn how to invest through reading rather than reading comments online only. Be a reasonable investor.

I should think twice before speaking. 

I should write at least 2 academia papers and join in at least 1 competition. 

Read at least 2 parenting books and write comments. Read investment books.